Apr
30
The World According to the Peevish Kitty
Apr
30
I have taken a billion photos of That Baby. Okay, not a billion, but a LOT. I can fire off 200 shots in a moment, just snapping away as she goes about the business of being her. And she’s so cute, it works for her. But one thing I really regret is that I have no shots of the two of us together during her first year. Well, to be fair, I probably have one or two. But I have no shots of me snuggling with her or rocking her, or giving her a bottle, or the two of us making faces in the bathroom mirror (as we do every morning). There are all these incredible, special moments that the two of us share that are not captured. I wish I had them for her.
It’s hard. I am on the other side of the camera. I have taken so many photos of her, when she is older and looks back on them, she can’t doubt that I am absolutely enchanted with her. But if something were to happen to me, as it did with my mother, I want her to have pictures of us together, so she will see the moments that I live with her right now. I want her to have pictures of the two of us and our time together. And I am not talking about cheesy posed portraits. I want pictures of us that capture who we are, and what it looks like for us to be mother and daughter.
Anyone who knows me knows that I have an absolute dread of having my picture taken. I am incredibly unphotogenic. Or perhaps it is just that I cannot reconcile the reality of the ugly me that I see in photos with the attractive picture of me I have in my mind’s eye. Either way, I loathe getting my picture taken. So you have to understand, that for me to want to have pictures of myself, it must be a big deal.
The thing is, I am hoping that my daughter feels differently about me than I do. I am hoping that she loves me, regardless of how I look, and wants to have those pictures of me after I am gone. I am hoping that she wants to remember me and see our special moments together. I am hoping that she thinks I am pretty because I am her mom. I am hoping that she loves me and will see how much I love her in those pictures.
I want to always be with her. I want my love for her to always be with her. And pictures can be something that gives that to her.
Only I don’t have any. Her first year is gone, and I have nothing to show her what incredible joy she has brought into my life, or how much she has changed me, or how much I love her. It’s one of my biggest regrets in life.
Apr
29
Okay, because I just can’t get enough… another in the Adventures of Maru. Be sure to keep your eye on him the whole time:
Apr
28
Because it makes Stinkerbelle belly laugh like crazy, I give you: Maru and his big box.
Apr
27
Some random stuff from the weekend:
Apr
23
YAY! After 3 days of rain, the sun is (sort of) out! It’s nice to get a break from the spring rain. And tomorrow will be 23 degrees of gorgeous! Both Stinkerbelle and I are anxious to get outside.
It’s been a tough couple of days around here. That Baby has been struggling at nighttime. We put her to bed, and half an hour/45 minutes later, she’s crying. At first, we thought it was that she was overtired. The next night, we thought she had gas pains. Last night, we thought teething might be the problem. But after careful consideration, we’ve come to the conclusion that we have absolutely no idea what the problem might be. We sat with her last night, in the dark in her room, for over an hour, just trying to console her and get her back to sleep. If she was sitting on my lap, chattering away, she was fine. But the minute we tried to get her to sleep… she screamed blue murder. So, we’ll see what tonight brings.
But this means that there is no rest for the weary here. Between the need to climb on me throughout the day like I am a large piece of mobile furniture and the comforting she needs at nighttime, holding That Baby has become an 18-hour-a-day job. And the hours between baby bedtime and parent bedtime, the time when BDH and I relax and unwind, are not our own. Plus, when the drama happens again in the middle of the night, as it did on Tuesday, BDH is awake at all hours, and if needed, calls me in as reinforcements. It’s hard. It’s just a phase, but when you are in the middle of it, it’s exhausting.
So, sleep is in demand here.
And yesterday, I was really feeling the exhaustion, because I had what I think was an ocular migraine. I was cleaning up in the kitchen, and had my laptop with me to message BDH about supper. But my vision began to blur, and I could not see what I was typing. As it went on, my peripheral vision began blurring. It was like ripples in a pool when you toss a pebble in. I felt completely fine otherwise, no headache or anything — although when your vision goes nuts it is a little disorienting, so I decided to sit down. And then after about 20 minutes or so, it passed. Very strange.
And afterwards, I had a pretty nasty headache. So after that and then last night’s drama, it was really nice to go to bed.
But this morning, after a decent (or, at least uninterrupted) night’s sleep, with the sun shining, things are more positive here at The House of Peevish. We’re looking forward to getting out for a walk today, which we both need — me for the exercise and fresh air, and Stinkerbelle for the fresh air and to get away from the endless videos. The change of scenery will do us good. And hopefully the fresh air will help Stinkerbelle have a nice long uninterrupted sleep tonight, and give her mom and dad a bit of time to relax.
It’s amazing how the sun coming out can change your outlook.
Apr
21

Ever have one of those days when it feels like gravity is really, really strong?
We’re having one of those weeks so far. It’s pulling me so hard, it’s hard to get out of bed. When I am out of bed, I am weighed down, usually in a chair, by a baby who seems to be feeling the effects of big gravity herself.
Travelling is always hard. It tires you out. And vacations, even the most relaxing, often leave you feeling like you need a vacation to recover from your vacation. I know I am pretty tired. Stinkerbelle was a trooper, but you can tell that even she is feeling a bit tired.
Plus, she’s been a bit clingy. All the changes, in place and people, plus the new teeth beginning to poke their way through, are making That Baby want to snuggle more. Not that I am complaining, but it does make it a bit difficult to get anything done around the house. When I am not snuggling with her in our comfy chair, she’s crawling headlong into my shins and then clawing at my pantleg to be picked up.
And I am tired, so who am I to complain? I drink caffeine all day, just to be alert enough to deal with That Baby and not doze off while I rock her and give her a bottle. But then, when I go to bed, the caffeine makes it hard to fall asleep. So you can’t win for losing.
What I wouldn’t give for Stinkerbelle to take a good 2 -3 hour nap. But that is NOT going to happen.
That’s okay though. In a day or two, she’ll be back on routine and I’ll crash and get a good long night’s sleep, and then everything will be back to normal.
Until then, though, we’ve got to fight the fight against gravity. And probably lose.
Apr
16
On Saturday, I woke up and That Baby was suddenly one year old.
Today, I woke up and she had gotten her first tooth.
And today, I went out for a walk, and while I was gone, she learned how to crawl forwards. She was a backwards crawler, and we thought she’d just go straight from sitting to walking.
It’s all going too fast.
I am never taking my eyes off That Baby again. Blink and life passes by too quickly.
Apr
13
Hello. *waves*
Are you looking for me?
I’m here. Sort of. I mean, I am on vacation. But I’m still around.
There’s just a whole lot of FOOD. And it’s making me sleepy. So I haven’t been inspired to post much.
What is it about holiday dinners that make people resemble big lumps of goo in comfy chairs?
Also, we had a birthday party. For That Baby. So we have pictures and video.
But that’s not getting posted right now, either.
Also, the excitement and the crowds of peeps everywhere and the BALLOONS (!!!) and the travel have just generally made That Baby all fatutzed. So she was up half the night.
So I has a tire.
Anyway. If you have been wondering… Let me recap.
We made it here safe and sound. We’re vacating. We’re tired. The weather’s lousy. But the company and food are great.
We have pictures.
And when I can manage to hoist my butt out of this most comfy of all old rocking chairs, I might get around to posting.
Or, perhaps I’ll just mosey over to get some snacks.
It could go either way.
Apr
10
I got up early as usual with Stinkerbelle, and since it is a stat holiday, it feels like a Saturday. The street is quiet, without all the usual noises of cars and people going about their busy days. The house is quiet, as BDH is sleeping late. It feels like a Saturday.
We have a lot to do today. Tomorrow we are off on a week’s holiday to visit family, and we have a lot to do to prepare. Pulled muscles in my back, tax preparation, and other bits of life prevented us from getting much done in advance, so it all falls to today to do. We “must strike in the hustle and the bustle beforehand.”
There are cats to ready for a trip to the “spa”. (Well, one cat, anyway.) There is cleaning to do. There are floors to be swept and mopped and vacuumed. There are bags to pack. There is cat litter to attend to. There are dishes to be cleaned, and clothes to be folded, and toys to be put away. And somewhere in the midst of all this, someone has to keep an eye on That Baby.
Most importantly of all, there are lists to make. Don’t get me wrong, I have already begun lists. But as any good listmaker knows, it takes more than one or two lists to be TRULY prepared.
But it feels like Saturday. All I want to do is sit and relax with a mug of coffee while That Baby watches Baby Mozart and puts things on her head.
But it is NOT Saturday. And so, there is much to do.
Apr
9
The 12th square in Stinkerbelle’s quilt comes to her from her awesome cousin Autumn.

The animal print is a special choice, from a girl who LOVESLOVESLOVES animal print. Autumn is rapidly advancing on her teens, so she loves fashion and basketball and (eep!) boys, and all things popular with kids her age nowadays. But she’s also someone who has taken the time to ask her mom about where Stinkerbelle was born, and to learn a little bit about Ethiopia and Africa while she was waiting for her new cousin to come home, so her choice of an animal print wasn’t just a happy coincidence.
I remember when Autumn was born, so sometimes it’s hard for me to remember that this is a young lady and no longer the tiny little girl I used to demand hugs from at every meeting. She still humours me with hugs, however, even though it’s not really cool to be seen hugging an aunt. And she’s still the pal I most enjoy playing Sims2 with, although the time for that is short nowadays.
But she IS a young lady, and I see that whenever she is with Stinkerbelle. She takes the time to play with her and talk to her, and is always interested in how she is doing. She’s gentle and kind and I hope will be that cool older cousin that Stinkerbelle can grow up to look up to and admire.
Autumn also loves to write, so I am going to be very interested to see what wish she comes up with for Stinkerbelle when the time comes!
So thank you Autumn for sharing your fashion sense with such an awesome square!
Apr
7
Our next two quilt squares are a fun pair, and they come to us from Stinkerbelle’s Auntie Sherri and Uncle Mike, and her cousin Maddie.


Isn’t that neat? A pair of squares to represent the two continents of Stinkerbelle’s life. I thought it was a fun idea!
Sherri has been on my blog since forever, lending her support and wisdom to almost every adventure we embark upon here at the House of Peevish. She has been on call for every life emergency and silly question we have had with That Baby at every hour of the day and night, almost from before she was born. And she loves That Baby like nobody’s business, even in the face of Stinkerbelle’s smunchy faces and wet diapers! And That Baby loves her Auntie Sherri, and delights in snuggling and playing with her. And Uncle Mike was making That Baby giggle from their first meeting, so you know he’s a hit, too!
Maddie — also known as the legendary Madd Dawn of song and story and much adoration from Kelly — is Stinkerbelle’s closest cousin in age, and, if you can believe it, wins the “baby chubby cheeks” competition hands down. Stinkerbelle’s chubby cheeks pale in comparison to the round apple cheeks of Maddie’s babyhood. But now that she is a Bigger Girl, she refers to her cousin as “Baby Stinkerbelle” which has a bit of the protective air of the Older and Wiser Cousin, which I hope persists as they grow up together. No doubt, now that That Baby is older and a little more interactive, their next meeting will mark the beginning of a fast friendship.
Now, there’s one more square to come from this little family — one from That Baby’s bigger cousin Autumn. But we’ll give that one a post of it’s own.
I know how much thought went into choosing these squares, and how much Sherri and her family wanted to find the perfect squares for their contribution to Stinkerbelle’s quilt. And I have to say, they did a pretty awesome job, don’t you think? Thank you so much, guys!
Apr
6
We’re in the midst of a snowstorm right now. A 15 cm pasting of wet, sloppy snow, that makes the roads slushy and no fun for driving, and that sticks to buildings, trees and cars alike, until it gets too heavy and then it falls off into heaps. I like it.
Every year during the first week of April (or almost every April, I think) we get a snowstorm. It’s usually a whole lot of wet snow over a short period of time, and the temperature doesn’t venture too much lower than zero. And although it’s a big dumping of the white stuff, the snow vanishes often as quickly as it came. It’s like winter sends one last blast so we don’t forget about her until she comes back next December.
I like the April storm, unlike most other winter storms we get. It shows up after a couple of weeks of warmish spring weather. And like the rule that you should not plant until the May 24 weekend, it’s predictable, always happening around the same time — although a couple of years it has come as late as the 11th or 12th. So you know that spring has not really come until after that last storm.
After this storm, it’s easy to be optimistic about spring. I can start thinking about what needs doing in the garden or the lawns. I can start putting away the winter clothes and hats and mitts. I can take the bunting bag thing off the stroller and dress the baby in spring jackets. And the heat can be switched off a lot of the time because the temperature is generally reasonable until the dog days of summer.
But mostly, it means I can finally say goodbye to the snow and cold wintery weather I despise and start welcoming spring. And this makes me happy.
Apr
3
You may have noticed I was not here yesterday. Well, it was 15 degrees outside and sunny. So, That Baby and I went for a walk.
THREE times.
I like going out walking with That Baby, and she enjoys it too. I think we were both tired of sitting inside, tired of the TV, tired of just us over the wintertime. So since spring has arrived, we have taken every opportunity we can to go out.
Our car being on the blink has been a real blessing in disguise. For starters, if we want to go anywhere, we have to walk. Now, that has limited some of our choices — for example, I could not enroll Stinkerbelle in swimming lessons this spring because we have no means of getting anywhere. And it requires compromise — the money I would have spent on swimming lessons will now go towards fixing my brakes instead. But all in all, having to walk places has been good exercise for me, and we both sleep well with all the fresh air.
Another really cool thing is that we are exploring. Some days, we are only walking to the store and back. But now that the days are warmer and there is gradually less and less chance of little people catching a chill or getting chapped cheeks, we’ve had more time to walk. So, I will sometimes get my computer out and pull up a local map before we set out, and we’ll head for a neighbourhood that we have not seen before. Since we are limited to stroller-friendly walks, so far we’ve only ventured to places where we have lots of sidewalk. But it has been nice. I put on my iPod and we just go.
I am getting more fit as we go along, as well. Yesterday, for example, we walked for about 3 hours or so all told, and about 14 km (or 9 miles if you prefer). We wandered down streets we’d never seen before in neighbourhoods we’ve never visited. As long as I checked the map for the major in-and-out streets, we are good. We wander down streets that look interesting, or have good names, or if it is windy, provide some shelter from the wind. But because it is all new and different, I can go for quite some time without noticing the time or the distance, so I am, by extension, able to go farther and for longer, and so on. But I am walking with just baby, stroller, iPod and water, so we don’t venture farther afield than about half an hour’s walk from home, just in case of a diaper blowout or a suddenly hungry Stinkerbelle. So I think as the spring wears on I will have to consider bringing along a diaper bag. And some snacks.
Wandering has been good for our heads, as well. Stinkerbelle has discovered trees, and birds, and dogs that we meet along the way. She’s got a whole big world to discover. Me, I just get some of myself back by listening to news documentaries or travel programmes or whatever music I want to (which is not played on the xylophone a la Baby Einstein, sung by the Wiggles, or is in a movie musical of some kind). And, let’s be honest for a minute, I love the adoration that That Baby gets from almost everybody she passes, as they marvel at her gorgeousness or are won over my her funny, cheerful disposition. It’s good for the Mommy soul.
But the one downside — well, not really a downside, so much as a side effect — of our long wandering walks about town is physical. My everything hurts. Muscles are complaining and cramping on a regular basis. I have blisters on my blisters. And every time I move there’s an audible “URRGGGGGHHHH” or “OOOWWWWW”, which is unbecoming, not to mention how it makes me look like a giant pansy.
And then there’s the issue of sun, which is becoming a problem because That Baby REFUSES to tuck her right hand in, and is consequently getting a tan on one hand. So, sunscreen will soon be in order. Not to mention the GIANT SUNGLASSES I dream of buying her.
We’re both going to look FAB as we wander this summer. As long as you can’t hear my groaning, of course.
Apr
1
Yesterday was a good mail day… because Stinkerbelle got 3 boxes, containing 4 prezzies, from Kelly!

A stunning halter-style beach ensemble, with oh-so-stylish retro applique

Haute couture romper set, complete with haute couture giraffes, for the happening girl-about-town

A couple of books for the diapered intellectual
Stinkerbelle’s first birthday (FIRST BIRTHDAY!! *sniff, sniff*) is fast approaching, so she got some lovely early birthday presents. Which she delighted in showing Grammy via webcam last night. There was much waving garments about and singing, a sure mark of true enjoyment in our house.
I love that the colours are bright and vibrant. With her dark skin, Her Babyness looks FAB in bright vivid colours — and with a closet full of pink and purple, wearing these will be great fun!
So thank you SO much Kelly! We’ll be sure to get some pictures of That Baby in her new outfits (if it ever gets warm enough to wear them!)