Cheap, Not Easy

I think it’s a well-established fact that I am cheap. I don’t like to spend money I don’t have to, and I love to bargain shop.

No, that’s not fair. If we are more than flush — and there have been periods in my adult life where this was the case, before mortgage and kid mostly — then I will buy without worrying. Whatever I want, I will get.

But this does not happen often, and thus I have learned to be frugal when it comes to shopping for material stuff. I still have not mastered frugal food shopping, but in that, I am a work in progress.

Anyway, I am cheap. I hate to spend money on things that might be considered “frivolous” or “fun”, and I am always about saving money for the event of an emergency. Or, just saving money, full stop. So, when the time comes to actually SPEND money, it’s a bit of a struggle for me.

For the past couple of birthdays, I have been gifted with a certain amount of money, and I can honestly say I haven’t spent it all. Well, not on myself, anyway — it gets put into the bank and I have the intention of buying this or that. And then I just don’t.

I do a lot of window shopping though. If you checked my computer at any given time, in any number of “shopping carts” on any number of vendor sites, I am sure you’ll find a few things I have placed in there in the course of my browsing. On sale, OF COURSE.

And then what happens is that I either bail, and convince myself that I don’t actually NEED whatever is there, or that I wait too long and whatever it is I was shopping for is sold out.

That kind of takes the decision out of my hands, actually. Which is not bad, because it is also easy to explain away. “Oh, I was GOING to buy it, and then…”

And, as usual, this past December, I spent only a portion of my birthday money. I also have a gift card from Xmas that needs spending. So once again this week, I find myself with a cart full of yarn. There’s a yarn on sale that I have never purchased, but that I have heard is a really good yarn to work with. So yesterday, I made the decision, and I put a bunch of yarn in my cart. And then last night, I put a bit more in.

BDH was all BUY THE DAMN YARN ALREADY WHERE IS YOUR CREDIT CARD HAVE YOU BOUGHT IT YET.

And I hemmed and I hawed and I made excuses, and downstairs on my computer still sits an unordered purchase. I could not bring myself to buy it. Part of me is waffling because I need to purchase more than I had originally thought I would in order to make what I had planned. Part of me is waffling because I am thinking, but I could also buy these books I have wanted.

But mostly it’s the fact that I am going to buy something fun and not completely necessary for myself. And I just can’t bring myself to do it.

I am cheap, but I am certainly not easy.

6 thoughts on “Cheap, Not Easy

  1. Since being laid off and having only lay off pay coming in on my side (my paycheque used to pay the mortgage every month, but my lay off pay doesn’t cover it now), I am much the same. In Italy we are having winter sales, and I decided I could spend 50€ on frivolous dresses that I looked great in and that I will eventually wear to the new job I hope to find in the near future…..sometimes you just need to listen to BDH and give yourself a break and say WTF I deserve this!

    • Just so you know… I did! I bought enough yarn to make 3 blankets. None will be for me. Although then today I found some yarn that was THE PERFECT COLOURWAY for a throw for my bed and now I’m all oooohhhhhhhh…

  2. Buy it already!!!!! It is your money and was meant for you to spend anyway you want. SPEND IT.
    i AM ALSO CHEAP BUT LATELY IT IS THE OPPOSITE AND YOU KNOW WHAT? IT FEELS GOOD.

  3. Way to go Cinn! Every once in a while a girl just has to splurge to get back into the groove! hugs from a cold Turin (not even close to as the cold that has hit Canada these past days – Canadians would find it balmy here).

  4. I’m sorry…I don’t even know what you are talking about with the holding back on the yarn thing…..That just does not compute. There must be a glitch in the system. Yarn…buy….don’t even guess, struggle, or question…..just BUY it. All of it. Mwahahahah. I know this post was directed especially to me. You have to tell me what you bought. I am in suspense here.

    • I bought 1500 yards of Universal Yarns Superwash for a blanket for BDH, and 1400-ish of Cascade 220 Superwash for a blanket for That Girl. I also bought about 2000 yards of Cascade 220 Superwash for another blanket but that was discontinued so didn’t actually end up getting it. Sadface.

      There’s some hand dyed superwash I wanted to buy from a vendor on Rav but it’s just too expensive for me to justify. Le sigh. I’ll wait for another sale at Webs, I think.

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