Mar
11
It’s Friday. And not a good day so far. And I confess…
- …that when I woke up this morning and turned on my computer to see the news of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan, I just broke down and have been crying on and off since. Japan is my second home. I love the country and the people and although I did not live in Tohoku, it doesn’t matter. I lived in the Kansai and that earthquake was only a 7 and it destroyed so much. But this… at 8.9 it is exponentially larger, the biggest shake Japan has ever endured, and with 7 metre tsunami… it is horrifying. I haven’t been in touch with anyone I know there in many years, but it doesn’t matter. My heart is aching. I just don’t know what to do.
- …that I happened upon some blogs full of photos a week or so ago and so have been feeling homesick for Japan ever since. So that’s just making things worse.
- …that my feelings are magnified by the fact that Stinkerbelle was up half the night. Maybe it was this cold coming on, maybe it was growing pains, maybe fear of the dark. But she didn’t sleep much and therefore neither did we. And so I am feeling doubly sensitive this morning.
- …that I was expecting a weekend of rain and warm temperatures and woke up to OMGWTF SNOW. Five to ten centimetres of that shit. It took BDH more than twice as long as usual to get to work this morning. I am not venturing out today.
- …that Stinkerbelle’s developmental appointment went surprisingly well this morning. She’s learning and growing and did some tasks really well today. I needed that. Our caseworker Monica is just fantastic and she loves Stinkerbelle and I really needed that this morning.
- …that I feel a little stupid that today’s confession is tagged as “fun stuff”, which is how all my Confession Friday posts are tagged. It seems inappropriate given the content, but that’s just how things are organized.
- …that I feel a little shocked and a little at sea today. And that’s just going to have to be okay.
