Confession Friday

Well, That Baby is currently watching Curious George and playing with this noisy toy full of balls and air and insanity-inducing carnival tunes, and BDH is off running some last-minute errands to prepare for dinner and two days of my newfound cold symptoms (Yes. Again.), so I have a few minutes to sneak in a few confessions.

So, I confess…

• …that I have yet to wrap a single present, so you can guess what I’ll be doing most of the day.
• …that if there has been a cup of coffee in my hand over the past two days, it has been one with a generous shot of Bailey’s in it. I am unapologetic.
• …that I am so pleased that Stinkerbelle has warmed up so quickly and completely to Grammy and Grandad. She often plays shy while she finds her bearings in a new place, but it’s nice to see that time getting shorter and shorter as she gets older and she remembers her grandparents more and more. We want to be sure they have a close relationship, which is hard to so at a distance, so this warms my heart.
• …that my husband has been running errands for two days with no complaint, and I am really grateful.
• …that my plans to get healthy have been put off until January, and I am going to just forgive myself for indulging and have a little fun this holiday. The guilt and self-loathing can wait. I will never be happy until I am thinner and fitter and healthier, but I am also tired of hating myself and am just going to let it go for awhile.
• …that I am kind of excited for BDH to open his presents this year. I got him some cool stuff this year. Some he will open here, and some he will open at home.
• …that I am determined to keep this cold at bay by sheer force of will. But I am also looking forward to some Benalyn Nighttime, I can’t lie.
• …that while getting hand-me-downs is awesome, it also skews your reality a little bit — as I discovered when I bought a shirt (and, we shall see, Xmas jammies) for That Baby. Basing it on what sizes she is currently wearing, I seem to have completely underestimated her actual size and the shirt barely fits her. I am afraid that for Xmas, she will open a present of too-small festive jammies. Whoops.
• …that my daughter could not get to sleep last night, as is typical on our second night of any visit. So after 2 hours of listening to her futzing and talking and complaining up in her bed, I went up and got her, and brought her downstairs with the family where she cuddled with me under a blanket and watched Elf. She was as good as can be, didn’t make a peep, and it has turned out to be one of my nicest holiday memories ever.
• …that my thoughts are with many friends that are having a hard time this holiday season, and though it hardly seems enough, I am sending as much good mojo out into the universe to them as I can, in the hopes that their holidays bring them some peace, and that the new year is bright and hopeful and full of good news and positivity.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all of you, my friends. I wish you peace and happiness.