Random Tuesday: Frustration Edition

Tuesday is random enough, without being tired and frustrated to make it even more random.

• Our daughter, we have decided, has developed a new — and let’s be honest, here … quite frankly annoying — fear of the dark in recent days. So, after spending a sleep-deprived night with Shrieky Baby on Sunday night into Monday morning, I faced the day yesterday fortified with a billion cups of coffee and a resolve not to get pissed at my kid for something she can’t help. It’s a normal developmental stage, so we just have to roll with it. So I cheerfully stumbled through the day, mostly exhausted, being as pleasant a mom as humanly possible to my daughter. Okay, I lost my shit a little at naptime, but that was before I did some reading and got the brainwave to leave Stinkerbelle’s door open during naptime, which worked a treat. And I was as patient as I could be with the inevitable bedtime antics that came with 8 pm last night. Given that BDH was off to soccer and I was on my own, it was a lot of trooping up and down stairs and turning lights on and off and covering and re-covering That Baby. And so I tell you truly, it was a good thing she had already gone to sleep by the time I got into one of my tasks on computer, because…

• Technology made me its bitch last night. Many of you know I started on a Project 365 photography project this year. Well, I didn’t keep the page updated, OBVIOUSLY, SHUDDAP I KNOW I SUCK, so that part of the project was a big fail. But I have been fairly faithfully taking photos, and storing them all on our hard drive. So, I spent all day Sunday and Monday organizing a lot of photos from the past few weeks since I had a bit of a backlog to sort and rename. We have some adoption-related stuff coming up and I needed to use a bunch of them. So, I got them all organized, and then I went online with Black’s to put them in the format we want them printed, and then you just upload and order and pay and tra-la-la. Right? Yes. Except for the fact that I spent HOURS getting the pictures JUST SO with Black’s online web app thingy, and clicked “continue” to have the order go through, only to have EVERYTHING EFFING DISAPPEAR. Oh, the FILTHY LANGUAGE emanating from this house last night. Like I said, thank doG Stinkerbelle was asleep by that time, because she’d have picked up some fascinating new words.

• Thanks to my daughter’s ongoing battle with darkness, and my own personal battle with the darkness that is online photo apps from certain photography store chains, my 30 Day Exercise Challenge went bust yesterday. I was doing well, exercising every day for 30 minutes, mostly riding the bike in the basement at 6 am before the house wakes up (while surfing the web. I admit it.) But 6 am yesterday morning saw me doing battle with Stinkerbelle’s fear of the dark, so I was unable to ride in the morning, and yesterday naptime was taken up first with prepping dinner then with Stupid Damn Black’s. And then last night was a write off, full of cuss words, so no riding there, either. And I doubt that either running up and down the stairs continually to soothe That Baby’s crying OR the pacing and cussing I was doing in a hotheaded rage after Black’s trashed my hours of work will qualify as exercise, although I tell you calories were definitely expended.