If you believe in astrology, then my birth sign has doomed me to be someone who starts many projects and never finishes them.
It’s true, in a lot of ways. I don’t know if it has anything to do with my astrological sign — I don’t believe in that stuff. But I admit that it is one of my character traits. I do start a lot of projects with enthusiasm. I love the planning and dreaming that comes with a new project. I love to imagine what could be. But when I actually get into the thick of a project… well, I often lose interest.
Our house is littered with projects left half-done. I have bags and boxes of crafts that are unfinished, almost-completed knitting projects, and fabric waiting to become something useful or pretty around the house. I have furniture waiting to be refinished and revitalized and reused. Walls are taped in painter’s tape waiting for me to finish painting the trim, and a gallon of paint for the spare bedroom sits waiting for me. I have years and years of back issues of Canadian Living that I had planned to go through and get recipes from. I have endless files on my computer of recipes I’ve never used nor catalogued.
I don’t know what it is that makes me dream of these things I will never do. I imagine a life as dictated by home magazines and self-improvement magazines and housekeeping magazines, and I think about how lovely it would be. And sometimes, I actually take steps and start these plans. And yet, they never come to fruition. Sometimes I think that it’s the other projects that I start and never finish that get in the way. Sometimes it’s just that real life gets in the way.
Perhaps I am readily distracted. I need to remind myself constantly as I do things in my day to finish what I start. I will be in the middle of a task and think, “Oh, I need to…” and I am off to take care of the next task. Or maybe it’s that I am good at multi-tasking. When I was working, I was good at juggling multiple timelines and projects and demands at once. I am not sure which it is.
But now that spring is coming, and our home study looms throughout the spring, it’s time to get myself together and get a lot of projects done. I won’t have time to waste, and we cannot do things half-assed. There’s too much at stake.
And so I hope you’ll pardon me, but I have to finish writing now. There’s laundry to be done. (And cleaning. And painting. And throwing stuff out. And…)